Oh well.. hahx.. back to blog again.. i'm so busy with so many things.. from homework, to FOP to School stuff to Cell Group to Service to tuition.. so many things to do.. eeerrrr...

so where do i start off with?? i dont know.. but i just feel so free from all oppression.. from my previous problems.. i realised that i never use vulgarities anymore already.. especially those starting with letter F or B.. my tongue is like totally under control.. i find my anger problem also being surpressed already.. i dont get irritated very easily like last time.. i find my thinking really changed alot.. like i'm more calm nowadays..never have all sorts of funny lustful thoughts already.. like fantasies ah etc.. it's not say i'm proud to type these out but i feel that i'm not ashamed that i have these problems and i'm glad to say that i've faced them, confronted them and got over them already.. all thanks to something that happened to me on 28th July..

FOP was great.. but the sadest thing was i didnt get to see the service at all.. but at least i get to hear it.. i was serving along south doing traffic but in the end, i was transfered to overflow room where i got to jaga the toilet and preventing people from entering the south balcony.. anyway, i really had fun.. Reached home extemely late.. hahax.. or it can be counted as early bah.. hahax.. =)

Well, so bored now alone at home.. mum will be away to australia with uncle peter for 10 days.. and i'll be home alone these 10 days as my bro will be in army camp.. but seems like i'll be watching national day parade alone bah.. hahax... but hope that people will ask me out.. LOLX.. or maybe hold a party at home??.. hahax.. i dont know.. but being home alone is nth special.. it's like a normal feeling.. the same kind of feeling ever since bro went to army.. he's never at home and mum often comes home late of it not i'll be home late and mum is asleep already.. so it's like part of a lifestyle for me already.. but one thing i know is that even though my mum is working till very late hours and never spent time with me, i never felt that i' m in lack.. bcoz i have alot of ppl who actually care for me like my friends and cell members..

Feeling very choky these past 2 weeks.. like i cant stop coughing.. cough till i like duan qi like that.. like shortness of breath that kind of feeling.. but i believe it's all due to the weather bah.. change of it.. hahax.. extremely bad weather.. everyone is coughing and having flu lately..

Well.. today i must say must be my best day in school so far ever since sch started 7 wks ago.. today was like the best so far lah.. the reason?? simple.. i'll be the only one from badminton getting colours award for badminton.. WOOHOO.. but who else can take sia besides me.. if we actually made it to nationals this year, jian wei would have taken with me.. haix.. disappointed lah.. lets not talk about it here.. regarding tournament..

Spoke to coach today.. i was telling him that i was interested to do some coaching for our school for our boys doubles players.. and surpirsingly, he agreed.. so i'll be back after my o lvls as coach ben.. hahax.. only coaching the doubles as i'm only trained in doubles all my life.. i really look forward to see myself being a very strong player after my Os.. especially with hopefully a lighter and fitter body... with more muscles and less fats.. i'm like a ball now lah.. but after my o lvls, i've decided to put in my time and effort during that period of time to train my stamina.. i would go for jogging probably ard 6km everynight and go to gym on alternate days bah.. so that i can improve on my arm power, my flexibility, speed and stamina.. i really hope that i'll be able to have the determination and will to train during that period of time and not to give up for whatever reasons.. also, i'll try my best to train to become taller.. maybe by skipping everyday and if possible, drink milk also.. hahax.. 178 is my ideal height.. and hope that my slouch and back posture will get better by then and it can be straightened to make me taller..

I have being having serious sleeping disorders lately.. i'm like sleeping less every night.. i would often slp at ard 3 plus or 4 plus in the morning and wake up for sch again the nxt morning at 6.. even now the time is also 1.33am.. LOLX.. but surpiringly, i feel very full of energy.. like i'm being revitalised like that..

ok lah.. blog till here.. most prob will be MIA for a period of time bah.. hahax.. =)