Hahax.. Finally Blogging again.. hahax.. didnt really have the time to do so.. was extremely busy with

1) sec 1 orientation camp
2) CCA open House
3) school life
4) Remedials
5) Trainings
6) Tournament
7) Sports Leader Stuff
etc etc..

Hmm.. where shld i begin with.. well.. i feel that i'm not really able to cope with my current work Load for the time being.. well.. hmm i feel it could be bcoz of many sports leaders stuff, tournaments, O lvl this yr thus all the homeworks and remedials.. etc etc.. i have being feeling recently that as alot of ppl in sec 4 taking O lvls thus yr are having alot of remedials, and also now is tournament period and SYF yr also.. i feel that our sch teachers are really being abit too inconsiderate by not considering the stress we faced everyday from the energy draining of CCA practice 3 to 4 times a wk and also the long lessons everyday.. well they might come up with the excuse by saying that " you do 1 work can liao.. i have to mark 40 over scripts leh".. come on lah.. that's totally plain rubbish i feel.. i dont see many teachers having to collect all our work and mark every single one of the them.. besides.. majority or the work are marked by the students... since you all wanna join teaching, den dont complain bout ur job or ur so call "passion".. it's ur job, you are paid for it so just shut ur mouth and do ur work..

In my opinion and from a few others whom i have gotten views from bout this issue.. we feel that structure remedial and more drills and hw shld be started at term 2 instead.. bcoz firstly, we havent even settle down in our sec 4 life with all the hw and the teachers want us to do more work.. it's damm stressful for every single one lah.. I know that this yr is our O lvl.. but our priority in my opinion now is to drill the nxt generation (the sec 3s) to take over our CCA etc.. that's our no 1 goal now.. if i cant find a successor for my CCA, how can i stand down from my CCA.. by not having enough time, i feel that we will have lesser time and more prob to find our successsor.. i still cant understand why can all these teachers cannot understand this fact..

Just ystd, when i reached home and got online.. syuhadah asked me a qns which i was hoping that someone will ask me that all this while.. someone who will understand my prob and share my probs with them..

the question is.....
Syuha: "ben, i realise that ever since ths yr, you have being abit anti-social"
ben: "oh.. hmm.. as in to who..??"
Syuha: "hmm.. to us, apparently the whole class"
ben: "erm.. well.. i find it that way to.."

den she went offline.. after that, i called tong and ask her to come online.. and she came.. Woots!!~.. and i seek her help.. i feel that ever since i have become the president, i have being having probs communicating with all my friends.. i find that like when we talk... firstly, my tone is like no longer friend to friend tone liao.. it's like president to others.. i think bocz of this, it led to ppl being inferior to me.. like afraid of me.. i have being losing alot of my friends..

I was full of thoughts.. i was wondering where was the old ben.. the very fun and socialble one.. i feel alot of pressure now to see that badge on me.. i feel like its like a barrier to prevent me to be the ben who likes to do alot of nonsense and is very socialble.. if that's the case.. i rather not to become the president.. i even went to the resort to ask juli this qns.. what if i step down as president and u become the president..

Well.. just ended rd 1 of tournament.. won all my games accept of riverside.. damm suay.. got food poisoning that day.. den lost my game.. kena trash even.. haix.. but thank God that MSL won all accept for riverside.. 2nd rd starting nxt coming mon.. will play montfort.. LOLX.. will try my very best.. hahax.. in 2nd rd, the schs with us are bowen, christchurch, sports sch and montfort.. hahax.. jing li er wei lah.. hahax..

ok lah.. blog till here.. wish me luck hahax.. Pray that God will guide me in whatever i do