Wednesday, October 25, 2006
WORST DAY OF MY LIFE
Hi ppl.. here blogging again..
To tell u all the truth, out of so many days that i've lived the past 15 yrs.. Ystd (25/10/06) was the worst day of my life..
The main reason??? Practically is because..
1) My hp was confiscated..
Ystd afternoon, after my mum came back from her facial, she came in slamming the hp bill on the table.. And guess what was the hp bill, it was just $71.33.. i was like oh ok.. this was the highest i've ever hit in 3 yrs.. My sms sent was 933 and my outgoing calls was 212.3mins.. LOLX.. (personal breakthrough)..
So once she step into the house, instead of saying high, she just shouted at me.. "U TAKE ME AS AN ATM MACHINE OR WHAT!! GIVE ME UR HANDPHONE NOW!!!!!!!" i was like woah.. just as what i've expected as i've being using my hp alot during the exam period as i was not allowed to go online to seek help or for people to find me for help or even to destress by talking to someone.. so therefore, i used my hp to sms more lor..
Later in the evening, i went to causeway with my mum to buy some stuff.. So after having dinner at banquet, we went to galare to have ice cream.. so over there, she mentioned bout the hp and my results again.. so she told me that bcoz of my hp, i did very badly.. but i feel that it's wrong lor.. i used my hp to seek help via sms lor.. y can't she just find the actual reason den just jump to a conclusion just like that.. i dont like people like that.. I personally feel that as a parent, she should set an example to me and my bro.. so guess what she told me.. i can only get my hp back only if my O lvl results are gd.. i was like =.= lor.. SIAN DIAO.. lolx.. i was shocked.. it's like my results will only be out on march 2008.. So guessed what i replied to her.. i told her.. nvm lor.. so she misunderstood me as being sacastic so she just went out of the place and we never talked the whole night liao.. So on our way down.. she was saying these words " i should have died the other time when i was in the hospital.. so i was like thinking lah "since u wanna die so much, y not just kill urself lah.." and i was like scolding vulgarities in my head.. To tell u the truth, i truly repent on that thinking..
When we reached home, guessed what did she did.. i came out of my room after changing and she was standing behind the sofa waiting for me and as when i came out, she slammed my phone on the floor just when i came out of my room like she deliberately wanna show me her anger.. sometimes i wonder lah.. what's her problem.. y must she always be like that.. So after that, i flare up too.. walked into my room and just sleep lor..
2) My mum bought a bulk of assesment books for me..
Ystd, i went to CWP with my mum and we went to popular.. she spent 50 bucks just to buy books for me which i find some of them unneccessary.. Why do i have to practice on my compre when ms liao gives one once in every fortnight or once a week..
To tell u all the truth, i most of the time feel that my mum never understands me.. I've already improved my subs from 5 fails the previous term to 5 passes this EOY exams.. to all my friends, teachers and my cell members, it's a tremendous improvement.. but to my mum.. those results suck..
i just wanna let her know that:
" i'm not gd when it comes to studies like my bro.. you are just like the world out there who compares me with others.. y not you see the average of my class.. dont ever insult my teachers, my friends, my cell members and even God.. I hate it when you do it.. i sometiems just feel that you never understand me.. i understand that you have to work hard to provide for us but can you at least encourage me for at least my effort of my improvement.. it sucks too see you always venting unneccessary anger on me for the stupidest reason.. I hope that you could understand me more in terms of the effort i put in my work.. You always never approve me in terms of my passion towards badminton and doing event management.. but i love it.. i know that studies is important but i feel that i gotta enjoy study in terms of self studying and not doing assesments and going for tuition.. I'm sorry for all the wrong that i've done and i vowed to be a more sensible person.. Just please give me time.. I love you.."
Sometime i just feel that i cant say these words out.. but i hope that she can read my blog bout this post.. haha
blog till here bah.. blog again nxt time..
