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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Today

Hi ppl.. here to blog again..

today is a rather interesting day.. At the beginning of sch, was the book quiz.. after that, it was the councillors confirmation ceremony.. it was rather interesting.. Sinthu and chu phu was the vice head councillors and Tariq the head..

So the SLs were suppose to be on duty and guess what did we need to do?? CROWD CONTROL!!! haha.. Councillor's usual daily job.. lolx..

So once the ceremony ended, mr chew asked me and jerome to follow him to fuchun pri to deliver some stuff that is used to promote our sch.. lolx.. fuchun pri is like so clean lor.. especially the toilet.. lolx.. after that, came back to sch ard 11.40am..

Once we are back, we went straight to M5 classroom.. haha.. went to play there and see some ppl play chinese chess.. That was when Tongxin gave me the cookies that she made.. it was delicious.. but only a bit burned.. nvm lah.. it's still nice tho.. hehe.. den jerome came to me adn say "Benjamin, this time u win but nxt time, i wont let you already.." after that, i went back to class to sit ard and that's when i realise that i left my folder in M5 classroom.. So when i was walking the stairs down, i saw smth very interesting..

So what was that interesting..??
I saw jerome confessing to Tongxin.. haha.. when i happen to walk pass them, i was like seeing tongxin looking at me like she needed help for someone to get her out of that situation.. but i just ignored her and just walked on covering my face.. but when i happen to walk pass, i heard tongxin saying these " i'm sorry jerome but i like someone else already".. i was like woah.. after that, i went with jerome to the toilet to change.. so he was like on the verge on tears liao lah.. so i was like comforting and he was like saying "benjamin.. i screwed it terribily.." so i was like telling my self lah.. i understand how u feel.. lolx..

Ok lah.. blog till here.. haha.. tmr last day of sch liao.. haha.. getting report bk..

Anyway tongxin.. tks for ur cookies.. love it.. i owe u a cake.. LOLX

WORST DAY OF MY LIFE

Hi ppl.. here blogging again..

To tell u all the truth, out of so many days that i've lived the past 15 yrs.. Ystd (25/10/06) was the worst day of my life..

The main reason??? Practically is because..

1) My hp was confiscated..
Ystd afternoon, after my mum came back from her facial, she came in slamming the hp bill on the table.. And guess what was the hp bill, it was just $71.33.. i was like oh ok.. this was the highest i've ever hit in 3 yrs.. My sms sent was 933 and my outgoing calls was 212.3mins.. LOLX.. (personal breakthrough)..

So once she step into the house, instead of saying high, she just shouted at me.. "U TAKE ME AS AN ATM MACHINE OR WHAT!! GIVE ME UR HANDPHONE NOW!!!!!!!" i was like woah.. just as what i've expected as i've being using my hp alot during the exam period as i was not allowed to go online to seek help or for people to find me for help or even to destress by talking to someone.. so therefore, i used my hp to sms more lor..

Later in the evening, i went to causeway with my mum to buy some stuff.. So after having dinner at banquet, we went to galare to have ice cream.. so over there, she mentioned bout the hp and my results again.. so she told me that bcoz of my hp, i did very badly.. but i feel that it's wrong lor.. i used my hp to seek help via sms lor.. y can't she just find the actual reason den just jump to a conclusion just like that.. i dont like people like that.. I personally feel that as a parent, she should set an example to me and my bro.. so guess what she told me.. i can only get my hp back only if my O lvl results are gd.. i was like =.= lor.. SIAN DIAO.. lolx.. i was shocked.. it's like my results will only be out on march 2008.. So guessed what i replied to her.. i told her.. nvm lor.. so she misunderstood me as being sacastic so she just went out of the place and we never talked the whole night liao.. So on our way down.. she was saying these words " i should have died the other time when i was in the hospital.. so i was like thinking lah "since u wanna die so much, y not just kill urself lah.." and i was like scolding vulgarities in my head.. To tell u the truth, i truly repent on that thinking..

When we reached home, guessed what did she did.. i came out of my room after changing and she was standing behind the sofa waiting for me and as when i came out, she slammed my phone on the floor just when i came out of my room like she deliberately wanna show me her anger.. sometimes i wonder lah.. what's her problem.. y must she always be like that.. So after that, i flare up too.. walked into my room and just sleep lor..

2) My mum bought a bulk of assesment books for me..
Ystd, i went to CWP with my mum and we went to popular.. she spent 50 bucks just to buy books for me which i find some of them unneccessary.. Why do i have to practice on my compre when ms liao gives one once in every fortnight or once a week..

To tell u all the truth, i most of the time feel that my mum never understands me.. I've already improved my subs from 5 fails the previous term to 5 passes this EOY exams.. to all my friends, teachers and my cell members, it's a tremendous improvement.. but to my mum.. those results suck..

i just wanna let her know that:

" i'm not gd when it comes to studies like my bro.. you are just like the world out there who compares me with others.. y not you see the average of my class.. dont ever insult my teachers, my friends, my cell members and even God.. I hate it when you do it.. i sometiems just feel that you never understand me.. i understand that you have to work hard to provide for us but can you at least encourage me for at least my effort of my improvement.. it sucks too see you always venting unneccessary anger on me for the stupidest reason.. I hope that you could understand me more in terms of the effort i put in my work.. You always never approve me in terms of my passion towards badminton and doing event management.. but i love it.. i know that studies is important but i feel that i gotta enjoy study in terms of self studying and not doing assesments and going for tuition.. I'm sorry for all the wrong that i've done and i vowed to be a more sensible person.. Just please give me time.. I love you.."

Sometime i just feel that i cant say these words out.. but i hope that she can read my blog bout this post.. haha

blog till here bah.. blog again nxt time..

Thursday, October 19, 2006

NORTH CLUSTER

Haha.. Parade of School for north cluster during emerge conference 2006.. Too bad i wasnt able to go for Emerge due to China Trip.. haix.. If not i would be one of them up there

Pls note: The Music is abit too slow.. hahaha..

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Me and My Phobia of a Drink

Hi ppl.. here to blog again.. as i've said in my previous post, i'll tell u all the story of my phobia of a drink..

It's:

BUNDUNG!!!!!

So how did i get a phobia of this drink.. the reason is lame but it's based on a true story.. lolx

Scene 1: Introduction
One fine day when i was in Sec 1 (2 yrs ago), i was meeting some of my pri sch juniors out to play badminton.. as a bundung lover last time, i drank a packet of it before playing.. So i was like straight after drinking it, i started playing badminton..

Scene 2: 15 mins later @ the badminton court
Around 15 mins later, i started to feel very giddy and i just started throwing up.. as u all know, bundung is pink in colour right and it's expected that the vomit is pink in colour..
BUT!!!
To my surprise, my vomit was RED in colour.. i was really shocked lah.. i thought i vomited blood.. and after that, i just passed out and was sent to the nearest clinic..

That's the story of me and my bundung.. haha.. lame right.. but it's true lah.. From that time till now, i never drank, see, take a smell or even touch a packet of bundung again..

Blog till here..

Happy birthday to:

I wanna wish Margaret a

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

Also, i wanna wish Steven and Myself a

HAPPY 3rd SPIRITUAL BIRTHDAY!!!!

I rmb very clearly that i was exactly this day 3 yrs ago that i gave my life to Jesus and received salvation.. Steven as well.. Happy Birthday Bro..

School (18/10/06)

Hi people, here to blog again..

Mann.. sch's boring especially during Post exam activity.. Today first got talk by republic Poly.. they are here to promote their school.. the facilities is gd but the courses dont attract me.. After that was POA.. was in the AVA room playing soccer with the stress ball RP ppl gave during a quiz.. damm sian lah.. after that was recess followed by a talk in hall about Sex..

The talk was like 2 hrs long.. BORING!! But Mr Loke HY sure was funny.. he got the most sensitive topic and instead of getting everyone disgusted, it caught everyone's attention due to his humourous dirty lame jokes.. It was on masturbation.. Everyone was like so attentive out of sudden.. hahax..

After the SE talk, i attended a talk about F&B (food and beverage).. it really caught my attention as i'm interested in airline, food science, culinary and hotel management.. so the alvin guy was talking about it and what the pros and cons of this couse line.. I was like super interested in it lah.. So i now am planning to either go to shutec or Temasek Poly to study the tourism couse and further my studies in Switzealand in the future.. BUT IT'S SUPER EXPENSIVE.. went home after that..

In school just now, i received an sms from Tong xin, she was like telling me that she only got 4 As.. She's like damm smart lah.. but too bad for her.. not being able to make my cake.. LOLX.. bcoz before exams, i promised her to bake a zebra sponge cake for her if she scored 5 As.. too bad for u lah tong.. got an wei jiang for u.. i'm urs for one day.. LOLX.. no lah.. will make the cake for u one lah.. hehe..

Just now, i was chatting with Tong Xin online and we were chatting about phobia.. So i told her that i got a phobia of a drink.. it's a drink that is very common.. tell u all in the nxt post about it..

blog till here.. haha..

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Cell Group Meeting (13 Oct)

Hi ppl.. it has being centuries since i last blog.. haha.. finally blogging again..

I just wanna extend my Happy Birthday greetings to Joeann..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!!!!!!

Ystd evening, i went for Cell Group... It was a Cell Group Meeting that really impacted my life alot.. The message ystd was on Building a life of purpose..

BUILDING A LIFE OF PURPOSE
I believe that most people especially those who are possibily at my age will surely wonder this qns b4 in their mind..

Which is ----> What is the purpose of me living in this world? What am i doing here?? Am i just to come here and rot, have kids and den just leave this world?

If u havent, stop and ponder about it now.. So do u have any answers to ur qns?? Well i have wondered about it before and i've already found my answers..

Life is not just about education, get a spouse, have kids, have grandkids and den die.. No no no.. it's not that.. Life is about preparing ourselves for eternity.. Let me tell you more about it..

So what happens when we do not have a purpose in life?
1) Life seems useless
I'm sure that when we do not know the purpose of our life, we will feel that life is useless, life seems like that is no goal and there is nth to do at all.

2) Life seems tiresome
Ecclesiastes 1:5-8 (NKJV) talks about everything just happens again again and again like a circle.. Everything just goes in a circular pattern.. Exampe day and night.. By not having a purpose in life, everything is just a meaningless circle..

3) Life seems unfulfilling
Ecclesiastes 1:8-9 (TLB) talks about no matter how much we see, we feel unsatisfied.. No matter how much we hear, we are never contented.. that's what will hapen if we do not have a purpose in our life..

4) Life seems Insignificant

5) Life seems uncontrollable
Eccleasiastes 1:15(GNB)

What is the purpose of life then??
The purpose of life is preparing ourselves for eternity.. Come to thing about it, every single action we are doing now is for preparing us for eternity.. We gotta ask ourself this question.. Are all the things we are doing now for God's Glory??

So how do we prepare for eternity?
Go for Bible Study, Serve God, Attending service, attending cell grp, giving our everything, reaching out etc.

Just yesterday during Cell Group meeting, God gave me a vision while we were worshipping.. I have the extremely same vision as margaret.. I saw jesus asking me to go to him.. He was like standing a few metres in front of me with his hands open wide wanting to give me a hug and not only that.. I saw a few of my friends behind with me.. As i got that vision, my burden for the lost felt heavier.. I just started crying non stop and at that point of time, God gave me 2 passages from psalm to encourage me..

The 1st one is the whole of psalm 23.. It goes like this
1 The Lord is my Shepherd
I shall not want.

2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.

3 He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake

4 Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will no fear
For you are with me
Your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And u will dwell in the house of the LORD Forever.

The 2nd One is from psalm27..
1 THE LORD is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall i fear?
The LORD is the strength of my life;
Of whom i shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked came against me
To eat up my flesh
My enemies ahd foes,
They stumble and fell

3 Though and army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;
Though war may rise against me,
In this I will be confident

These 2 passages really impacted me alot.. I was really encouraged deeply.. To tell u all the truth, i'm really afraid of reaching out bcoz of the fear of rejection and the comments that people made about City Harvest or God.. But bcoz of this 2 passages, i totally have no fear in me now.. I feel so super encourage and i feel that these 2 passages have a link with my vision that i have.. It's about reaching out.. It's telling me have no fear in reaching out.. The result is in the vision that i have if i do not have fear but Faith in God..

Ok lah.. blog till here.. bye