Hi ppl.. here to blog again.. ystd went for service.. it was a life changing experience.. totally life changing experience..

This week service very special.. Rev Mike Connell was the guest speaker.. He's gifted in inner healing and deliverance.. I really wanna thank him for coming to City Harvest.. He really open my heart more to Jesus..

He shared during service bout demons.. was rather interesting.. i was so engross in his teaching.. I wish that my teachers in sch can be like him.. teach something interesting.. He basically shared bout the 10 Doors for demons to enter into peoples life, how to be free from demons and what happens when deliverance or manifestation takes place..

After service, there was a special deliverance service.. i went for it hoping to be delievered.. There were alot of ppl who turned up.. Pastor first gave a altarcall for those who are involved in idolarty or have family members involved in it.. the first altar call have like a few hundred to a thousand who went down liao.. I responded to the second one.. It was for those who are involved in smth that has smth to do with sexuality or have some bitterness or bad relationships with ppl ard us.. I responded to it as i gotta admit, i have lust in me at times, i have bitterness towards some ppl and i have rather problems with relating to ppl in sch..

When i went to front, i was at the extreme front.. I started to feel some stirring in my stomach.. i began to have alot of fear in me, i began coughing badly, i have a very bad headache and i really wanan run away.. But i just step up to the front

TO PPL OUT THERE READING: you may feel that after this thing, u will think that i'm siao or what.. but it really happened to me..

After that, 2 brothers ask me to go more to the front and i went.. One of them immediately grab me on hy head and i just started shaking violently.. i fall and another brother behind caught me.. i immediately began manifesting.. i Screamed loudly and was shaking and kicking violently when i was lying on the ground.. If i'm not wrong, it took about 4 to 5 brothers to hold me down.. and one of them prayed for me and i settled down.. When i was manifesting, i was confessing all my problems and my sins to God.. My mind was rather clear.. i was like pinned down by 4 ppl.. in case i manifest again.. i was rather aware of what was happening ard me.. when i was on the ground, i rmb that i was the only one screaming.. the most obvious one bah.. the one which is the lowest voice.. the rest were screechy.. When i finally got back to my senses, i was like very weak.. I could hardly stand up.. when i finally stood up, i felt like as though my stomach was very empty and i was very light and could hardly walk also..

It was an experience of a lifetime.. I really wanna experience it again..

Hillsong UNITED - One Way in Japanese

hi ppl.. here to blog again.. i found this video on youtube.. it's the song ONE WAY by Hillsongs UNITED.. but this one is in japanese.. nice song.. enjoy it

Hi ppl.. i'm here to blog again.. after alot of consideration and thinking and even after a nap.. i've decided NOT TO QUIT.. The reason is practically a few things..

Firstly, if i were to quit just like that over stupid reasons i'm sure that Yong Jian, Wan Er, Wei Li, Mr ang, Ms Chow, Syamirah, Wei Ting and Mas will be very disappointed in me.. I dont think that by me quitting will solve the problem.. Just by quitting like that over this reason, All those stated above will think that i give up easily.. Even God will think so that i'm a quitter.. I was wondering where was the old me who is always determined and agressive and someone who will not quit easily or over stupid reason.. I still need to find myself back..

Secondly, I really wanna thank Pei Qing for knocking sense in me.. She really encouraged me alot.. She said that for her, alot of ppl also dislike her.. she say that she try to change.. nvm.. i saved the entire text from her..

Here is it..

~!@#$*()_ PQ _)(*&^@!~ i m here to announce that i had CHANGED my instrument to ERHU... says:
like me.... like yr like many ppl dislike me... i TRY my best to change, i nv said they don hate me le... but i knw, my effort pay off, when frez tht dislike me tell me thing like actually i don hate u le... u will feel great...

~!@#$*()_ PQ _)(*&^@!~ i m here to announce that i had CHANGED my instrument to ERHU... says:
if u just quit like tht u r proving those who dislike u... tht ya i m a failure.... i cant take those comment...

~!@#$*()_ PQ _)(*&^@!~ i m here to announce that i had CHANGED my instrument to ERHU... says:
PROVE to them tht u can change PROVE to them tht u had change... if u just walk off like this... u r really... a failure...

~!@#$*()_ PQ _)(*&^@!~ i m here to announce that i had CHANGED my instrument to ERHU... says:
sry if izzit is like insulting but i never,... i m trying to share my thinking and my experinece... i also fail be4... but i m on the process of standing up...

~!@#$*()_ PQ _)(*&^@!~ i m here to announce that i had CHANGED my instrument to ERHU... says:
ben... don quit... don give up...

~!@#$*()_ PQ _)(*&^@!~ i m here to announce that i had CHANGED my instrument to ERHU... says:
even if u fail.... AT LEAST u TRY be4 !

~!@#$*()_ PQ _)(*&^@!~ i m here to announce that i had CHANGED my instrument to ERHU... says:
U GET IT ?!

I just wanna let Pei Qing Know that i get it.. I will try and not give up.. make this like a promise for me to you.. i wont give up.. I wanna thank MY cell group who was there to encourage me..

I also wanna extent my apologies to Margaret.. I just wanna say that i'm very sorry for slamming the phone down on you..

EVERYONE OF YOU JUST GET THE HELL OUT OF MY LIFE.. ALL OF YOU ARE HYPOCRITES.. NONE OF YOU ALL IS REAL

Today after school, there was sports leader meeting.. Mas and i handled all the logistics while Wei Ting and Juli conducted the briefing.. Den today after the meeting, wei li got me, wei ting, mas and juli to stay back to chit chat..

Wei li was sharing his story about how bad he was in the past and how he changed to be someone better and even be the vice president.. It was rather encouraging..

Throughout this talking session, wei li told me something that really sucks.. I feel that everyone who heard this will surely hate it as well.. Wei Li told me that something really make me so sad and disappointed that i kept very quiet the rest of the day.. He told me about that there are times when i have to be higher than the others and there have to be times where we can be at the same level as the others.. this one i really agree to it.. But his nxt part was the one that make me feel rather disturb.. He told me that people approached him and told him that if i become one of the presidents of the sports leader council, they will quit being a sports leader.. i was like so shocked lor.. I was like what the hell lor.. I almost cried when hearing this.. Now i'm having thoughts in my head.. Since so many people hate me, den i will change.. but to talk like this behind my back, i wont forgive them.. got problem with me, just tell me personally, i wont be angry one.. But if i found out who talk bout me behind my back, i will see them one time beat them up one time.. teach them how to SHUT THEIR TRAP.. SCREW THEM LAH!!!!!!!!

Since so many people dont like me as a committee of the sports leader council, fine! The most is i quit from the committee or even quit sports leader.. one more me or less one of me does not make any difference.. Tmr i'll hand in my resignation letter to wei li or yong jian.. but my last wish now is to finish the notice boards in the sports leaders room.. thinking bout it now makes me sad and i really wanna cry out now.. On my way back on the bus, i was hearing my mp3, den the song untitled by simple plan came.. the chorus really describe the situation that i'm in now..
It goes like this..

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I really wanna scream out now.. I'm really sick of this life that i have.. I'm so lost and i got no where to run bcoz of my mistakes tat i've made.. My last resort is to quit.. I think after i quit, most people will be happy, opening champagne and even putting fireworks... I dont mind..

Just wanna say that i'm really sorry to
Yong Jian
Wei Li
Wan Er
Mas
Syamirah
Wei Ting
Mr Ang
and lastly Ms Chow

Sorry for the trouble.. Work hard guys..

Hi ppl.. I'm here to blog again.. I've changed my skin liao.. to Bleach.. haha.. If anyone of you wants bleach skin, look for me.. i have alot of it.. I spent bout 2 hrs to change everything.. Thank God wen hui did not help me in it.. if not, how to learn.. Ok.. blog again later..

Hi ppl.. here to blog again.. racial harmony day has just passed.. As usual, i took some pics.. Racial harmony day was rather fun.. Especially the assembly time.. Got drama.. Very nice.. Very hilarious.. Althought it's only by 3 actors, but the play was really great.. It really make me want to watch the Phamtom and the Opera again.. haha

Anyway.. i upload all the pics liao.. Finally..

All the students of our class in racial costumes

The Boys

The boys again..

Didnt really took much pics.. Thats all for the nice ones.. haha.. Btw.. one of the days, there was a cockraoch in my house.. my bro killed it and i decided to take 2 pics of it.. it looks rather cute though..

Hi ppl.. here to blog again..

Today, i came late for school. I reached school at about 8.40. Sian lor.. I overslept.. Came to sch, the 1st teacher i saw was Mr Pradeep, my form teacher.. SO SUAY!!!.. He warned me not to be late again if not, i'll be seriously punished.. Today, i took a total of 4 buses to school.. A 911, 903, 912 and a 913.. haha.. long story why.. hehe.. When i reached school, the lesson was PE.. After PE, we had photo taking straight after PE lesson.. The worst part was i have to change into my uniform when i'm all sweaty and the picture is taken in the central sq.. UNDER THE HOT SUN SOMEMORE.. when the pic was taken.. my whole shirt was totally drenched..

One think that really shook me greatly today was during POA lesson. Esther suddenly ask me a question. It was how come i always behave like a gangster in school. I was SHOCKED.. I really wonder why.. Why is my attitude so bad... I really dont know the reason.. I just need help.. I can't stop thinking bout that qns she ask..

After school, as it was raining, syuhadah, juli, mas and myself were chit chatting in class.. It was really a fun time.. Can't stop laughing.. I was singing very loud and the rain got heavier.. the girls ask me not to stop singing.. haha.. but eventually, i did stop as it sounded disgusting..

Today i was really depressed.. i really wanna backslide.. I really wanna break away from the fellowship of the church.. I'm really very stressed up by my cell group members.. I'm just too stressed.. I just wanna give up..

Just now, i was smsing with Jing hui.. I told her smth that i think really shook her.. I told her that.. (dont wanna tell).. I told her that i just wanna stop smsing with her so that i will forget bout her.. I dont wanna keep on thinking bout her..

Just dont care bout me EVERYONE of you out there... There isn't any one who REALLY CARE FOR YOU.. It's totally ridiculous.. LIFE SUCKS..

Hi ppl.. here to blog again.. Ystd, we celebrated Saheb's birthday.. Alot of people turn up and it was a very fun event.. One thing that i rmb very clearly was when i went down to have a stroll with Isaac and we chit chatted about girls by the swimming pool.. To my surprise, he is not a innocent as i think.. he is dirtier than i ever thought.. basically, we just talked bout that boys from boys school and girls from girls school mostly cant relate to the opposite sex very well.. so he agree that it's true and we just keep on chitchatting about this topic for a long time.. until my brother came and we all went back up together..

Anyway, as usual, i took some pics from the event so just share with u all..

Saheb the birthday boy

All the kids playing UNO

The UNO gang

Sarah in an interesting post there.. Wonder what's she's thinking..

Danielle.. Sleepyhead aka sleeping beauty

Danielle sleeping.. lolx.. she's on candid camera

The food last night..

Isaac.. Danielle's brother

Rachael.. Sarah's elder sis

Jaipal..

Jaipal's Ezlink.. His picture reminds me of wanted man from Al-Quada

Man's gathering aka Big Boys Gathering..

The Big Boys drink.. CHIVAS REGAL 12 aka WHISKY..

Tat's all for today.. haha.. update nxt time..

Haix.. Sian.. Nth really to do now so i just come and blog lor.. haha.. thinking of so many things now.. haha.. it's a secret.. so cant share it here..

I just watch finish Full Metal Alchemist The movie.. Very nice movie.. It's a must watch.. It's about the conquering of Shambala and alot of action.. Watch it den u will know lor.. haha..

The past few days in school, i took some pics in class.. since i've already upload it, must as well show u all.. haha

Firstly.. Wei li, our class chemistry rep and all her chem TYS.. haha..

Taufiq our class vice chair and wei li his partner.. Everyone thinks that smth is going on between them ah.. haha

Syamirah Juli.. haha.. the pretty girl who is sitting beside me in class..

Syamirah's moo moo pencil case

Handphones of me, mas and juli

Watches of me, mas and juli (what time is it now??)

Wei Li.. the most hardworking student of the yr.. lolx

EJ.. (Taken by mas)

haha.. that's all folks.. blog again nxt time

Hi ppl.. it's almost 3 o clock in the morning liao.. wah.. i'm still so awake.. haha.. who ask me to slp at 8 plus just now till 2 o clock..

Today, got match against westwood secondary at Bukit Gombak sports hall. Very sian lor them.. If the this yr's b boys were to play with them, sure will feel sian one and even is a waste of time. I find it very boring also.. They not very strong, but yet the nxt yrs b boys played rather horribily..

Well the results for today are, C boys 7-1, win. B girls 10-1, win. B boys 11-6. The B boys results very bad.. I really wanna go into nationals nxt yr. I dont wanna let our graduating seniors down by being out either at the 1st or 2nd round nxt yr. But at nationals at least. It's not that my expectations are high, it's just that the boys are not training hard enough.. They always complain over tough trainings and refuse to train outside or even have self training to tone the body up even.. Like that how to win even or have stamina to last till rubber set.. Haiz..

Wah... I'm very tired for the past 2 days. Events after events are happening now in school. Extremely tired. I've being staying in school for the past 2 days for almost 12 hrs. Must as well camp there lor..

On wednesday, ah... woke up at ard 5.30. Left home to meet jing hui.. I was downstairs her home at 6.45.. guess what time she came down.. 7.05.. Wah Piang eh.. Thank God we weren't late for school.. Phew..

Have lessons on that day.. BORING!!!.. Wednesdays as ususal was boring.. After school was NAPFA test for all the sec 2s.. WoooHOo!!! (Finally got smth that i'm on fire to do liao). I was one of the overall ICs and was in charge of the Sit & Reach Station as well. While doing duty, i tried to ensure that everything in all the 5 stations were doing fine.. During duty, to my surprise, she came to my station.. I very stress lor.. Her friends kept on saying tat i and her got smth going on but in truth, nope.. (Let me clear your doubts now ah.. I and Jinghui have nth going on). Shitty lah.. Too bad i wasnt able to help anyone to cheat.. But in actual fact, i didnt know whether can this be counted as cheating also mah.. Actually, i gave every one a 1 cm allowance.. Too bad lor.. my thing was stuck mah.. so bo bian.. lolx.. =)

Whole event ended at 5.45.. After that, me, rovson and aaron stayed back to chit chat.. time indeed flies. We chatted till about 7 pm den we leave the school.

As for ystd, nth special happened. I was late for school.. Guess what time did i reach.. 8am.. Pro right.. No lah.. bcoz i got nose bleeding in the morning.. Chemistry lesson was fun, did practical.. I find it really interesting to play with chemicals though..

After school, went to play soccer for a while with the M5 boys and some from my class at the volleyball court.. Headed straight for training after that.. I really regretted going for training. Now my hand pain again.. Went to see doctor at night.. met margaret at serangoon to collect smth.. den headed straight home..

Reach home bout 11.. Sms with her along the way home till i fall asleep.. I'm just feeling very worried now.. About the badminton friendly match against westwood secondary and will i be able to carry down the sports leader spirit mah.. Really stress sia.. Dont worry wei li, yong jian and wan er.. I'll promise you all that i'll try my best to carry out this sports leader spirit when you guys are gone.. Trust me i will.. So dont keep on feel worried and go study for your exams..

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Haha.. 1st Official Post.. Just testing only.. I wanna thank wen hui for creating this blog for me.. haha.. tks a million..

I'm officially opening this blog and will use it and blog more often in the future..